When there's no more feelings left, just numbness remains
How do I feel? I feel alone. I can't let people in, I'll only get hurt. I feel scared. Not only of people and places, but myself too. What if I lose control? I feel guilty. It's all my fault I'm like this. I just can't seem to change myself. But how is it that I feel all of those feelings, and still feel nothing?
Wow. Thank you for summing that up quite nicely. This is what it's all about.